Dear Mamma (Root Of All Pain)

Wassup World
this right here started off as a EM
write off wit TY ( http://livelyricism.blogspot.com/ )
but as i started writing i got in to it
this is as real as it gets rite here
This is goin on Th Composition Notebook

I named my first project released that
cause all my life as far as i can remember
i would write in Composition Notebooks
u kno da one wit da black nd white on da outside
i got so many of dem packed up in storage
lost
nd at home its crazy
filled wit everything i've been thru

so witout further prolonging dis
here





No question 2 y i feel so alone
only questions is y it hurts me soul
im askin da question 2 u like u would kno
my life's been a black
writing 2 escape da sorrows
wit no support 4rm my mamma
who'd rather me b a scientist or a doctor
in her eyes i wasnt even wanted
how would u feel growin up knowing dis
havin dis feeling
my name is a JR
but my dad is Timothy
Ricky who my mamma wanted it 2 b
Wit me was prob resentment
4rm her own decissions so she tried 2 control how i'm living
manipulative
abussive
3rd grade arms nd body covered in bruises
but she said she loved me
so its all confusing
8th grade Ricky wanted a DNA test
we sat in yo room nd u cried on my chest
sayin u aint mean 4 IT 2 happen
u aint wanna hurt him
u aint mean 2 fuck Tim
IT was a accident
she wished she could ghange IT
IT being me
so da light blinded me but not i cant see
jus 2 pull out all da fake round me
da pain
despair
da sorrow
really no attention 4rm my mamma
since 3rd grade been able 2 take care of me nd my brothers
while she was wit Eistine
Dekarlos i would babysit
4th grade samething
but dis time wit a Tomlin
but not once u hear me complainin
figured somebody deserved happiness
nd wat did i look like takin it 4rm u miss
now u prob feel wrong
4 wat u done
but i only talked about a couple subjects
im not done yet
wish da beat was longer
so dis verbal beatin could prolonger
recongnitions all i longed 4
told me i was da man of da house
so who were dese men comin in yo house
thought i was da perfect son
so y do JeDon get a betta childhood
did i not deserve it
cause u didnt wat IT
IT being me again
wrote dis i started cryin
cause my mind u got inside of
now i cant look at u without wantin 2 cry
since 2nd grade had suicide thoughts man
i kno u prob thinking 2 yourself God damn
cause i held it in along wit more shit
i said i wanted 2 b cool wit Tim
nd u said fuck dat bitch
damn is dat really how u feel
cause u once said u should've stayed wit him
wen u were a kid
u playin wit my emotions
neva thought i would make a Dear Mamma
so its Dear Djuana
nd this jus the tip of da problem
would u listen or read dis
2 ask dat question y bother
secretly wanted other people kids
til u admitted it
damn u hurt yo own kid
physically
emotionally
mentally
i would say spirtually
but I've been losing my faith since 13
nd u wonder y i cant stay down wit one female
cause u warped my mind wit thoughts of every female
cause my life u was tryin 2 impress
nd do 4 da wrong reasons
no racial
but da white man nd woman bragged nd showed off 2 dem
but wit yo friend u doggin out yo kids
its dat real
let another man beat me
how could u
got mad wen i called another lady mamma
or wen i tried 2 get close 2 my grandmother
u havent even tried 2 do shit 4 yo grandson
so dont expect him 2 welcome u wit his arms open
im not writing dis 4 u 2 aplogize
I'm jus giving u da secrets behind my tears
my thought nd mean mugs nd attitudes
cause i finally realized u were lyin
wen u said
I love u 2


i dead ass cried while writing nd typing dis


Cool?
Joe Cool

My Version Of Unstoppable by Drake

Wassup World

You wanna imitate Drake
so lets get it

My name is Joe
Im damn near perfect
i want da thrown nd da crown
cause i deserve it
4 fame i aint workin
skip da hurtin
i jus want recognition
4 da tracks dat i tend 2 murder
if not den u can call it man slaughter
gun talk? i draw better den Picasso
or Michelangelo
smart like Donatello
but i got u lookin green like the ninja turtles
I'ma genius
I'm mc squared wen u hear me
cause im Micheal Young History
'The Cool' yo bitches seem 2 b chasing me
got her goin both ways
cause i got her all in da streets
these niggas jus so industry
wat they talkin bought dont mean shit 2 me
jus lying and stunting
bitch assness 2 da 5th degree
nd if i eva get indited
4 my cool history
like Chappelle's skit im pleading the 5th amendment
da best 2 me is a term of endearment
im next door 2 greatness wen i spit
wen i freestyle dats jus me flirtin wit perfection
cause the best got they ass kicked
like a freak bitch
dat title always gets passed
so wen it reached me i told it 2 keep walkin
spittin call it fartin
but im jus rhyming while im talkin
diarrhea of da mouth
i dont see no stoppin it
niggas said i wouldn't b shit til pigs fly
last week on CNN all i heard about is swine's flu
wit no " A-CHO!!"
bless me
nd watch me do wat i do
im unstoppable til i make my dreams come tru


Cool?
Joe Cool

P.S. Ty we doin Em next
i already got my dear mamma verse in my head kinda

Takin it back

Wassup world

You kno i've been goin thru it

so i reverted back 2 my childhood

cartoons always seem 2 help me

casue no matter wat somebody relates

lol

Killer Tofu

it always gets stuck in my head

ima make a beat 4rm dis

Cool?

Joe Cool

The Morning After

Wassup World

Still alive

I stayed up Dragonball Z last nite
God works in mysterious ways
after all da shit i went thru yesterday
havin crazy thoughts
high off pills (i had punched a hole thru my head board)
weed
nd smoked plenty cigerrettes
my mind was cloudy as hell
but as i was walkin home i met these niggas
D Quincy nd J
they cool as hell
real into anime nd music
me nd b easy had started a cypher outside
cause dats all i eva wanna do wen i'm high
lol
they stopped, listened, den spit 2
it was fun
took my mind off of it all
i need 2 start ventin nd talkin bought my problems
i cant let dem get so serious
dat i think bout killin myself
i got a son who needs a father

i'm finna write some music
eat
shower
smoke
den go 2 work
should b a "interrestin" day
2 hear people's comments
after yesterday

my gurl said she still loves me
so did Lil Harlem
i even prayed yesterday

lil bruh u kno i care man
im always in yo corner
nd got yo back

New Music
on the imeem page also

O_o --> da cool

'High off more den weed'....I almost cried'

O yea
i almost 4got
Dj H2 (Halo)
talked 2 me ova facebook
along wit awhole bunch of other people
it really shocked me but it lifted my spirts
i jus need 2 vent, adress some issues, nd leave it or roll wit da punches.

i love u baby

O_o --> da cool

Suicide Thoughts (Super Saiyan Pain)

Wassup World
Im bloggin 4rm my phone high
smokin a square
slick goin crazy inside
its like all da things i bottled in all
all da pain all da lies all da hurt
was tryin 2 come out
its like im reachin my limt of wat i can take
last nite b4 i went 2 sleep i wrote
a suicide letter
cause i was contempletin death aolt latly
not takin my own life
but wat if my life was tooken
i've been havin dreams of me dyin
my friends turnin on
my gurl leaving me
gurls usin me den leavin
or sometimes killin me
my fam turnin they back on me always somewhere in my dreams
or im either tryin 2 protect dem den
dyin in da process
den on top of dat piles nd piles of stress on me
lookin at things in a new lite
overthinking things 2 much
i was losin it feeling unmotivated
jus idk lik fuck it
only time i was happy was round shunda
but i was still thinkin she gone leave me
idk could i b killin myself inside
could i b commitin suicide unconscienclly
dnt kno

b said all dis pain i grow thru im destine 4 somethin
Aight

Jus Checkin In (Lupe Predicted my Life)

Wassup World
i've been really like hurtin lately
.....i don't kno anymore
well now i do kinda

if u wanna kno wats goin on play
Lupe Fiasco's The Cool

but i'm not dyin
i'm changin my life ya'll 4 da betta u'll notice it hopefully maybe God will bless me wen i do....hopefully

i'm tryin my hardest 2 keep my religion (no matta how loose it is) even doe i'm goin at it
i'm dyin inside nd goin slick crazy
lets see which happens first
aight
Shunda jus txted me so dis entry is gonna b short
me nd her had a good talk a minute ago
i kno it might have hurt u baby
but we got a betta understandin now
i aired it all out 2 her
we had 2
2 build nd make a family 2gether

Sailor Moon....
stop worryin everythings cool.....
but im sorry doe

Ty lol the pressure is on really i got u wednesday night ima put a piece of my heart in dis
betta den Drake could

well let me get 2 da misses
im faithful
i found my wife

im jus hunted by.....
neva mine

new signature

O_o --> da cool

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