High Random Thoughts

Wassup World as i sit here riddin high wit a quarter ounce of green in my big bruh/bestfriend's mamma car many thoughts run thru my head pardon if i sound as if im ramblin but sometimes i wonder how i will i leave dis earth by my "friends" enemies or my demons deep inside my insecurities does my gurl really love me will things start 2 look better in the future im only 19 but i got an old soul responsibilities pillin up dreams gettin outta focus future lookin gloomy i can sometimes picture myself sprillin down i sometimes feel as if i can work more grind harder do extra there's always room 4 improvement i really need 2 improve fine tune perfect learn nd get better on i gotta make some sacrifices 2 get it but hard work begits sucess right im high so i dont really kno ya feel me we windin goin down all dese roads suprised im not car sick right lol but anyways man i wonder bout wat i want my carrear (cant spell i kno) 2 b in da future i've come 2 realize i hate feelin as if i haveless power or feel as if my power or position (once i get a secure position) is bein threatened nd wit me bein high alot i have a higher since of paronoia u could say nd wit that bein added to it my thoughts get more fucked up ya feel me but then i also read the 48 laws of power nd i learned nd memorized things in dat book nd the art of seduction which thought me so much matured nd smartened me nd wit that being said i tend 2 study people 2 learn nd watch so im not losin my position or power the more i learned studying people i learned alot about us nd how we think dats a carrear choice i had in mind was 2 b a psychologist its fun learning about people how they think nd y they do this that nd the other nd i learned alot of things steam nd come 4rm childhood like me 4 example i grew up wit barley close to no friends so i used 2 write stories of a place i could escape wit friends nd all as i grew older i turned 2 writing poetry it was a better way 2 vent nd it was always a fun challenge 2 get it 2 rhyme dats da reason behind wanting my second carrer option 2 b a poet but 4rm poetry birthed my 4th carrer option 2 b a rapper my love of music is deep the stuff they spit is like poetry u can say nd wat they spit tells stories nd hits hard along wit da beat whichs builds the poets words nd compliments them along wit settin the mood, tellin a story in its self sometimes it takes poetry 2 another level i jus cant figure out which one im destine 2 b music seems 2 b it the way everythings been fallin into place but they say if u seek then u shall find nd dats wat i've been seekin but in my spare time i learn nd study power the mind nd other matters in psychology i always wonder nd visualize my future "could happen" mishaps which discourages me cause i wanna make things perfect fullthrough i guess nd i 4got 2 mention journalism is another thought but how will i afford school again get in school again especially wit a baby not helpin anythings is my mother's bitchin nd complainin nd she was on the phone nd heard me ventin 2 my babymamma nd told me she was done wit me i cant sweat everything so i gotta brush this off right now i have 2 get a better job nd stack money i'm recordin my first mixtapes right now nd plottin nd deciding wen 2 put them out im tryin 2 make my intro right i wrote this in every style i could feel comfortable writing in now the delivery is wats fuckin up ima perfectionist (wen it calls 4 me 2 b) so i've been finishin verses after 90 some odd takes nd now im tryin 2 figure should i double nd about my adlibs its a fustratin process but rewarding wen u get 2 hear the finished track how u wanted it 2 da T its like bustin a nut lol not quite but u get da picture then i gotta release them at da right time so i get full notice im nervous 2 hear da feed back doe feeling like Lupe Fiasco's first verse in Fighters off The Cool u kno itim gettin past it doe
Cool?
Joe Cool

Theories on Love nd Woman (sober)

if love is a game am i suppose 2 win suppose 2 b da best or b a ref
- Charles Hamilton

Wassup World

I'm tryin 2 figure out love right now
cause I'm very confused
i kno wat i want 2 da T
but i cant get it
is it karma coming back at me??
4rm all da women i hurt in da past
im not sure
I kno its startin 2 hurt more nd more right
like sometimes i wonder should i even try being in love
cause it only last a lil while den fades off into something else
nd love wit me (no matter wat) starts as a physical attraction
lust
a sin
so is love considered a sin
i dont kno

but i've began 2 understand a lil y i treat nd do woman the way i do
all my life my mom controlled me
but its deeper den dat
let me jus say it

Women r Godly
men cant create life or deliver lie
woman can
rite

wit dat being said it is a possiblity
that God could b a woman
nd men knew dat
we all understand da strength women have
but we try (nd succeed)
in bringing dem down hurtin them
etc, etc.

they even called the woman Jesus might've loved a whore
damn
nd in da bible women cant b preachers
y

cause we tryin 2 hold dem down
we even said they came 4rm us
but not 4rm our feet
so we can step on dem
or 4rm our back
2 b behind us
but 4rm our sides
or ribs
2 help support us 2 b beside us
under our arms so we could protect dem

look how we treat dem
betta yet look how i've treated dem
played wit dem
fucked more den i should've
(jus kno ima pro wit sex)

nd y

cause i wanna conquer dem rite
dats how it seems

i like meetin nd fallin 4 women i cant see
long distance relationships our fun
i love dem
nd i love u

it really test my abilities 2 love
witout da physical
its crazy

nd as i ponder dis ima start on a new song
ima end dis like this
here's an excerpt 4rm it


"if love is a game y play it? it'll only end in a second.
games always end nd i dont wanna leave wit tears even if i win "
- Joe Cool

Cool?
Joe Cool

P.S. i wrote dis sober....wait til i spark up nd write
i'll blow yo mind

..::retreats back 2 da Hyperbolic Time Chamber::..
(everybody else got nice signatures)

Will She Eva Learn

Wassup World
I jus now got home
finally gettin 2 really rest 2day
i jus left "spending time" wit my gurl
if dats wat u can call it
i dont understand her sometimes
no all da time
its like everything dat was happening
in our last relationship is happening again
she jus dont get things
nd she wonders y i cheated
its not cause i dont love her
i jus wonder where my love is
maybe ima needy person
but if my gurl cant notice y im mad
wen i been txtin her all day sayin
baby i've been up since 5 AM shitin
i been at work since 4
had 2 walk home (35-45 min walk)
nd wen i get out da shower i leave
wit u yo twin sister yo friend nd my bruh
nd ride around listening 2 ya'll talk
complain bitch talk about people etc. etc.
4 2 hrs knowin i gotta wake up early 4 work
wats wrong i notice everythin
take in account yo feelings all da time
would do anything 4 u @ any moment
im damn near yo ATM
but u cant say i love u 2 wen i tell u i love u

wats da point of tryin anymore

wheres my love at

2 b continued...

Dear Mamma (Root Of All Pain)

Wassup World
this right here started off as a EM
write off wit TY ( http://livelyricism.blogspot.com/ )
but as i started writing i got in to it
this is as real as it gets rite here
This is goin on Th Composition Notebook

I named my first project released that
cause all my life as far as i can remember
i would write in Composition Notebooks
u kno da one wit da black nd white on da outside
i got so many of dem packed up in storage
lost
nd at home its crazy
filled wit everything i've been thru

so witout further prolonging dis
here





No question 2 y i feel so alone
only questions is y it hurts me soul
im askin da question 2 u like u would kno
my life's been a black
writing 2 escape da sorrows
wit no support 4rm my mamma
who'd rather me b a scientist or a doctor
in her eyes i wasnt even wanted
how would u feel growin up knowing dis
havin dis feeling
my name is a JR
but my dad is Timothy
Ricky who my mamma wanted it 2 b
Wit me was prob resentment
4rm her own decissions so she tried 2 control how i'm living
manipulative
abussive
3rd grade arms nd body covered in bruises
but she said she loved me
so its all confusing
8th grade Ricky wanted a DNA test
we sat in yo room nd u cried on my chest
sayin u aint mean 4 IT 2 happen
u aint wanna hurt him
u aint mean 2 fuck Tim
IT was a accident
she wished she could ghange IT
IT being me
so da light blinded me but not i cant see
jus 2 pull out all da fake round me
da pain
despair
da sorrow
really no attention 4rm my mamma
since 3rd grade been able 2 take care of me nd my brothers
while she was wit Eistine
Dekarlos i would babysit
4th grade samething
but dis time wit a Tomlin
but not once u hear me complainin
figured somebody deserved happiness
nd wat did i look like takin it 4rm u miss
now u prob feel wrong
4 wat u done
but i only talked about a couple subjects
im not done yet
wish da beat was longer
so dis verbal beatin could prolonger
recongnitions all i longed 4
told me i was da man of da house
so who were dese men comin in yo house
thought i was da perfect son
so y do JeDon get a betta childhood
did i not deserve it
cause u didnt wat IT
IT being me again
wrote dis i started cryin
cause my mind u got inside of
now i cant look at u without wantin 2 cry
since 2nd grade had suicide thoughts man
i kno u prob thinking 2 yourself God damn
cause i held it in along wit more shit
i said i wanted 2 b cool wit Tim
nd u said fuck dat bitch
damn is dat really how u feel
cause u once said u should've stayed wit him
wen u were a kid
u playin wit my emotions
neva thought i would make a Dear Mamma
so its Dear Djuana
nd this jus the tip of da problem
would u listen or read dis
2 ask dat question y bother
secretly wanted other people kids
til u admitted it
damn u hurt yo own kid
physically
emotionally
mentally
i would say spirtually
but I've been losing my faith since 13
nd u wonder y i cant stay down wit one female
cause u warped my mind wit thoughts of every female
cause my life u was tryin 2 impress
nd do 4 da wrong reasons
no racial
but da white man nd woman bragged nd showed off 2 dem
but wit yo friend u doggin out yo kids
its dat real
let another man beat me
how could u
got mad wen i called another lady mamma
or wen i tried 2 get close 2 my grandmother
u havent even tried 2 do shit 4 yo grandson
so dont expect him 2 welcome u wit his arms open
im not writing dis 4 u 2 aplogize
I'm jus giving u da secrets behind my tears
my thought nd mean mugs nd attitudes
cause i finally realized u were lyin
wen u said
I love u 2


i dead ass cried while writing nd typing dis


Cool?
Joe Cool

This Will Neva Happen 2 Me

Wassup World

lol jus watch

You gotta b tasteful wen spittin the real

or dont talk about da wrong girl

Cool?

Joe Cool

A Can Of Worms

Wassup World

I made a fan site on facebook 2day
thought i would 2 put the music out
first mixtape off Cool Musik comin out either July or Aug

man i been fillin apps out all day i think i kno myself betta now
even doe i lied
alot
hey i gotta get a job
school, music, Lashunda
man they makin me broke

speakin of school
i'm not movin 2 cali
or goin back 2 MTSU
is dat a mistake?
naw Lashunda nd Harlem need me
so wat i want can take a backseat
I might hit up a community college or something
in da spring nd summer
den go back 2 MTSU
or UTC

now back 2 da topic at hand doe
i decided to import my blog onto Facebook also
NOW
is dat da mistake
cause i mean i keeps it 400 on here (wat up Taja nd Cash lol)
nd i might offend people or get myself caught up

but if they cant respect it they might as well not read it den
fuck they talkin
naw fuck I'M talkin bout
y am i scared 4 people 2 hear my voice

i think its pretty sexy lol
naw dead ass doe
i want my voice to b heard

if i wanna be a successful writer
and/or journalist i need 2 get out of my shell

i'm tired people its pushin 2
nd i gotta continue my job hunt 2marrow

Cool?
Joe Cool