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Showing posts with label family. Show all posts

Friday, July 10, 2009

Damn

Wasssup World
Sorry I've been gone
but i've been working 2 provide 4 my gurl nd kid
yea a lot has been goin on

sadly my book of rhymes burned
wen my gurl house caught on fire (twice)
so im finna start writing my first mixtape (again)

ugh
God has something planned 4 me
....i kno ima blog more as i write it

The Saiyan vs Sonic Chronicals
The Heartbreak Hotel
nd other mixtapes
r on hold right now also

im back 2 The Hyperbolic Time Chamber
peace

Cool?
Joe Cool

High Random Thoughts

Wassup World as i sit here riddin high wit a quarter ounce of green in my big bruh/bestfriend's mamma car many thoughts run thru my head pardon if i sound as if im ramblin but sometimes i wonder how i will i leave dis earth by my "friends" enemies or my demons deep inside my insecurities does my gurl really love me will things start 2 look better in the future im only 19 but i got an old soul responsibilities pillin up dreams gettin outta focus future lookin gloomy i can sometimes picture myself sprillin down i sometimes feel as if i can work more grind harder do extra there's always room 4 improvement i really need 2 improve fine tune perfect learn nd get better on i gotta make some sacrifices 2 get it but hard work begits sucess right im high so i dont really kno ya feel me we windin goin down all dese roads suprised im not car sick right lol but anyways man i wonder bout wat i want my carrear (cant spell i kno) 2 b in da future i've come 2 realize i hate feelin as if i haveless power or feel as if my power or position (once i get a secure position) is bein threatened nd wit me bein high alot i have a higher since of paronoia u could say nd wit that bein added to it my thoughts get more fucked up ya feel me but then i also read the 48 laws of power nd i learned nd memorized things in dat book nd the art of seduction which thought me so much matured nd smartened me nd wit that being said i tend 2 study people 2 learn nd watch so im not losin my position or power the more i learned studying people i learned alot about us nd how we think dats a carrear choice i had in mind was 2 b a psychologist its fun learning about people how they think nd y they do this that nd the other nd i learned alot of things steam nd come 4rm childhood like me 4 example i grew up wit barley close to no friends so i used 2 write stories of a place i could escape wit friends nd all as i grew older i turned 2 writing poetry it was a better way 2 vent nd it was always a fun challenge 2 get it 2 rhyme dats da reason behind wanting my second carrer option 2 b a poet but 4rm poetry birthed my 4th carrer option 2 b a rapper my love of music is deep the stuff they spit is like poetry u can say nd wat they spit tells stories nd hits hard along wit da beat whichs builds the poets words nd compliments them along wit settin the mood, tellin a story in its self sometimes it takes poetry 2 another level i jus cant figure out which one im destine 2 b music seems 2 b it the way everythings been fallin into place but they say if u seek then u shall find nd dats wat i've been seekin but in my spare time i learn nd study power the mind nd other matters in psychology i always wonder nd visualize my future "could happen" mishaps which discourages me cause i wanna make things perfect fullthrough i guess nd i 4got 2 mention journalism is another thought but how will i afford school again get in school again especially wit a baby not helpin anythings is my mother's bitchin nd complainin nd she was on the phone nd heard me ventin 2 my babymamma nd told me she was done wit me i cant sweat everything so i gotta brush this off right now i have 2 get a better job nd stack money i'm recordin my first mixtapes right now nd plottin nd deciding wen 2 put them out im tryin 2 make my intro right i wrote this in every style i could feel comfortable writing in now the delivery is wats fuckin up ima perfectionist (wen it calls 4 me 2 b) so i've been finishin verses after 90 some odd takes nd now im tryin 2 figure should i double nd about my adlibs its a fustratin process but rewarding wen u get 2 hear the finished track how u wanted it 2 da T its like bustin a nut lol not quite but u get da picture then i gotta release them at da right time so i get full notice im nervous 2 hear da feed back doe feeling like Lupe Fiasco's first verse in Fighters off The Cool u kno itim gettin past it doe
Cool?
Joe Cool

Friday, June 5, 2009

Dear Mamma (Root Of All Pain)

Wassup World
this right here started off as a EM
write off wit TY ( http://livelyricism.blogspot.com/ )
but as i started writing i got in to it
this is as real as it gets rite here
This is goin on Th Composition Notebook

I named my first project released that
cause all my life as far as i can remember
i would write in Composition Notebooks
u kno da one wit da black nd white on da outside
i got so many of dem packed up in storage
lost
nd at home its crazy
filled wit everything i've been thru

so witout further prolonging dis
here





No question 2 y i feel so alone
only questions is y it hurts me soul
im askin da question 2 u like u would kno
my life's been a black
writing 2 escape da sorrows
wit no support 4rm my mamma
who'd rather me b a scientist or a doctor
in her eyes i wasnt even wanted
how would u feel growin up knowing dis
havin dis feeling
my name is a JR
but my dad is Timothy
Ricky who my mamma wanted it 2 b
Wit me was prob resentment
4rm her own decissions so she tried 2 control how i'm living
manipulative
abussive
3rd grade arms nd body covered in bruises
but she said she loved me
so its all confusing
8th grade Ricky wanted a DNA test
we sat in yo room nd u cried on my chest
sayin u aint mean 4 IT 2 happen
u aint wanna hurt him
u aint mean 2 fuck Tim
IT was a accident
she wished she could ghange IT
IT being me
so da light blinded me but not i cant see
jus 2 pull out all da fake round me
da pain
despair
da sorrow
really no attention 4rm my mamma
since 3rd grade been able 2 take care of me nd my brothers
while she was wit Eistine
Dekarlos i would babysit
4th grade samething
but dis time wit a Tomlin
but not once u hear me complainin
figured somebody deserved happiness
nd wat did i look like takin it 4rm u miss
now u prob feel wrong
4 wat u done
but i only talked about a couple subjects
im not done yet
wish da beat was longer
so dis verbal beatin could prolonger
recongnitions all i longed 4
told me i was da man of da house
so who were dese men comin in yo house
thought i was da perfect son
so y do JeDon get a betta childhood
did i not deserve it
cause u didnt wat IT
IT being me again
wrote dis i started cryin
cause my mind u got inside of
now i cant look at u without wantin 2 cry
since 2nd grade had suicide thoughts man
i kno u prob thinking 2 yourself God damn
cause i held it in along wit more shit
i said i wanted 2 b cool wit Tim
nd u said fuck dat bitch
damn is dat really how u feel
cause u once said u should've stayed wit him
wen u were a kid
u playin wit my emotions
neva thought i would make a Dear Mamma
so its Dear Djuana
nd this jus the tip of da problem
would u listen or read dis
2 ask dat question y bother
secretly wanted other people kids
til u admitted it
damn u hurt yo own kid
physically
emotionally
mentally
i would say spirtually
but I've been losing my faith since 13
nd u wonder y i cant stay down wit one female
cause u warped my mind wit thoughts of every female
cause my life u was tryin 2 impress
nd do 4 da wrong reasons
no racial
but da white man nd woman bragged nd showed off 2 dem
but wit yo friend u doggin out yo kids
its dat real
let another man beat me
how could u
got mad wen i called another lady mamma
or wen i tried 2 get close 2 my grandmother
u havent even tried 2 do shit 4 yo grandson
so dont expect him 2 welcome u wit his arms open
im not writing dis 4 u 2 aplogize
I'm jus giving u da secrets behind my tears
my thought nd mean mugs nd attitudes
cause i finally realized u were lyin
wen u said
I love u 2


i dead ass cried while writing nd typing dis


Cool?
Joe Cool

Monday, May 25, 2009

Finally!!

Wassup World
Aight I'ma get str8 2 da point
i kno i've been doin a lot of bullshitin
tellin ya'll about dis mixtape nd dat
im workin on dis nd dat but ya'll havent recieved anythin
well i've been talkin 2 da fam nd organizin things
we've decided 2 put our musik out startin August
call it 'The Cooling Process'
huh? lol
a mixtape a month startin Aug
a song a week startin Jan
nd if we dont deliver we double it da next week or month
sounds good?
My first mixtape comin out will b
'The Composition Notebook'
I've taken all my songs I've jus wrote 2 write
nd put dem 2gether 4 our enjoyment
aint no use sittin on dem right?
'The Cool Compiltaion' mixtape still workin on
'The Saiyan vs Sonic Chronicals' nd 'The Heartbreak Hotel' are also been worked on
expect greatness comin very soon

o yea

i got a job 2 yall
ugh back 2 smellin like chicken
i got da hook up on Zaxby's now lol
Tarble wassup lil bruh time 2 go super saiyan

....wat does he mean wen he says super saiyan

chill

Cool?
Joe Cool

Sunday, May 24, 2009

LoL

Wassup world
Look at shunda lol
does she really look pregnant 4rm behind

Cool?
Joe Cool

Snorlax Yawn (feeling like)

Wassup World
Jus woke up spent da day wit my babymamma yesterday
my bruh was actin crazy
ego trippin like hell
shunda even notcing da way my fam acts 4rm da outside lookin in
crazy
my lil man was movin so much yesterday
man i aint neva felt him move like dat
he was kickin nd jus movin around lol
i really got a baby man WoW
but how bout yesterday i was on H2's facebook page
addin people on his note nd how bout
i added da gurl 4rm da video dat punch
Charles Hamilton
lol im startin 2 sound like a stan wit dis nigga
lol
but yea den i re watched da video
nd she sounds jus like da girl 4rm
mtv2 cribs
im jus sayin not tryin 2 start anything
but im finna enjoy dis shower
drop da Cause nd Effect off at home
nd spend 2day writin nd organizing like i should've done da day b4 yesterday
still havent fucked startin 2 lose my sex drive now

Aww man
- says all da women round da world

dont worry it'll b back

Tearria baby where u @

Cool?
Joe Cool

Friday, May 22, 2009

Tip of Da Pain

Wassup World
Man dead ass sometimes or damn near all da time i cant stand my family. its like i try so hard 2 do dem rite b by dem if they need me or anythin ya understand, but they cant seem 2 do da same. They dog me out 2 each other nd other people. Talk crazy str8 2 my face nd my babymamma. they only ask me 2 do things dat benifit dem or if they do something 4 me they only do it if they benifitin. my mamma nd cousin dats damn near my sister stay fightin nd cursin each other out. i try nd bring dem close but it neva works. me nd my mamma dont get along. she told me i was a mistake at 13 or 14 she was barley around while i grew up. always workin or at school 2 impress da next person while i babysit my brothers. dats been goin on since 3rd or 4th grade. im not wanted i dont feel loved but they'll kno doe. i swallow my pride nd roll wit da punches no matter how bad they hurt internally. i dont like
complainin nd bitchin but its startin 2 hurt more nd more.
deres more...
UnCool?
Joe Cool

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Links

Wassup World
Ok i was jus txtin my bff
Cool? Hot! Tot
nd i was updatin her
on my Charles Hamilton news
nd my new future girlfriend

sometimes i swear my life is crazy
im like spirtually linked
2 some people
4 example i was havin strong feelings
dat jus made me sad nd all i could do
was worry bout Sean (Tarble)
after awhile i txted him
nd he was sayin yea he was goin thru shit
(i still havent checked da song out lil bruh my fault)
crazy

but wit my bff its different
its like we on da same page on damn near
everything
we was jus talkin bought my future
nd she said I Have More Future Wives
Den Anybody She Knows
nd She Has Eye Sex More Den Anybody
(tru she been takin off)

but our whole eye sex concept is so similar
wen u cry u nut
glasses nd contacts r condums
etc. etc.
its jus so funny cause i use 2 b on dat hard
nd she on it like me lol
we really connected
even if we seperated rite now
lol
aww man i miss my
Cool? Hot! Tot
ima b back dis weekend 4 a party

Cool?
Joe Cool

'And I'ma Hamilton....' (dead ass)'

Wassup World
man how bout im in da car
gettin my daily dose of Charles Hamilton
windows media player
plays nd she says
Your aunt's father's name is Charles Hamilton
well damn aint dat some shit
my rival nd i keep havin run ins
i think God is talkin 2 me
cause i jus realized i've been livin in
Chattanooga goin thru many problems
nd its county is
HAMILTON COUNTY
lol coincidence (cant spell)
maybe maybe not
dont kno i jus keep
idk ya'll its crazy
dis Dragonball Z theory im applyin 2 my life
is gettin real
im slick a Hamilton

Yo Goku dead ass doe
I'm comin 4 ya bruh

Cool?
Joe Cool

P.S.
"did my point get across"

Friday, May 15, 2009

Cold Chilling

Wassup world
Reportin 4rm da child support office
man dis my second time here
nd hopefully my last
first time was a false alarm
not my baby
dis time its my big bruh turn
us 3 (me him nd og)
slick chillin in dis cold as office
waitin
im tryin 2 hit up wallmart
so i can steal nd eat they chicken
while shoppin
tell me u havent done it nd i'll show u a liar
man its hot outside again damn
but its cool dis cook-out finna b str8
My niggas throwin 1
they doin they thang doe
rappin throwin parties performin
they in dere
they need some more exposure
i might send dem a contract fuck it lol
naw but im tryin 2 get dem on
i aint think they was focused like dis but they surprising me
dead ass
they raw wit dat street party nd real trap rap
they shit b bumpin
check dem on my facebook
under the videos on my page
Tarble snappin lil bruh hungry
Riva aint txtin me back (r u mad @ me??)
Sailor Moon wen i get dis money MIA next stop
King Lathan nd B easy lol we in dere
holla @ ya'll l8r

Cool?
Joe Cool

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

The Neverendin Zone Act 2

Wassup World
im slick hurt nd mad rite now
i jus wrote 1 of da most realest songs
about wat me nd my babymamma go thru
i feel so played i pause my plans 4 her not
da baby nd dis how she does me
am i a bad father 4 lovin my babymamma more den my son..
i kno we arent 2gether anymore
but she plays acts nd treats me like we r
maybe its betta we dnt b 2gether den
cause i wanna b wit her but i dont want 2 either
im not completly ready ima dog nigga
so im tryin 2 betta myself 4 Harlem her
nd myself
but nothin i does neva pleases her
I'm feelin like damn i aint shit
nd i dnt get dis 3 yrs damn near gone
Tons of women want me but im stressin ova her....
Y i mean damn i jus dnt kno wat 2 do anymore wit her us all of dis
love is so hard
i thought dis was somethin worth fightin workin nd puttin my efforts into
but damn where is da price 4 goin thru it??
dis y i dont have gurlfriends
its jus brings pain
confusing jus 2 many bad feelings
but y
love is supposed 2 b...
not dis
naw...

UnCool?
Joe Cool

I Aint Got Friends I Got Fam n Babymamma Problems

wassup world
Dis like my 3rd time tryin 2 blog man lol
My damn babymamma keep callin tryin 2 argue
i keep laughin nd blowin her off cause she funny
i think she scared of me nd my ex relationship
it aint nothin 4 her 2 worry bout doe
but she dnt listen
Da ex knows she makin shunda mad but fuck it
Im chillin in da hood
formally known as Highland Park
wit my niggas since freshman yr
I kno ya'll mite b like yea wateva wats da point
aight first
Its my damn blog so i can have a million entries sayin i like pie if i damn well choose
(babymamma jus called nd txted she gotta wait bloggin 4rm da phone)
but really since bein @ school i've been
exposed 2 lots of fake people but seein me closest niggas makes me feel betta
i love my niggas they like fam
nd king lathan n meachem been my niggas
lil bruh Tarble man he showin me he all in w/ music nd Cool Musik fam
he more den a artist 2 me
dis DBZ concept gettin real
Aight ya'll finna get on da ps3
txt me
Nd ima try nd settle argument

Cool?
Joe Cool

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Lord 4give Me

I cannot stand my mom
all da shit i gotta go thru wit her
is soul shatterin
heartbreakin
maddening
infuriating
nd motivational
cause
im tryin my hardest 2
grind in order 2 buy her a house
2 get her da fuck away 4rm me
nd my sibilings
she also harasses

UnCool?
Joe Cool

New Music

Wassup world

told you i'd b back

nd i got some new music 2 present to ya'll

now understand these r rough copies

but still pure crack

first up 4rm my lil bruh Tylfi

i've been tryin 2 get him 2 come 2 da label 2.....

lets jus say we still talkin lol

TY holla @ me dead ass


Who Got Me (Freestyle) - TyLFI

(^ click 2 hear full song)

My man's a lyricist

next we got my other nigga

my lil bruh Precyse aka Tarble

he got his lil nigga Kid Hip Hop on da beat 2 lol

its 2 cool lol i smiled as soon as i heard it


Untitled - PrEcYsE nd Kid HiP HoP

(^ click 2 hear full song)

he didnt give me a name 4 da song doe

but u cant lie nd say my niggas doin they thing

nd this they first songs recorded lol

come on ya'll

Cool?

Joe Cool

P.S. Tarble i aint 4get u lil bruh ima let dem kno once we talk it out lil bruh

Monday, May 11, 2009

Early Morning Ramblin (WhaaaAAaaa?)

waddown world
lol Lupe old shit caught back 2 me i jus left chillin wit my babymamma. Still got her nut on my fingers lol jp....or am i
dis my second time seein her since she got pregnant. I kno rite....I'm changin ya'll ima do betta lol
But naw she was beautiful 2day wit her fat butt. She's gettin bigger doe 4real her titties nd ass gettin big
Nd den bein away 4rm her da past 4.5 months has made me miss her nd want her more
Im tryin 2 not 2 let my feelings change til i finish the Heartbreak Hotel (2 songs left)
nd Saiyan vs Sonic volume 1 has 2 songs left. Those the only mixtape updates besides
Charlie Hilton im lookin 4 a studio now bruh i went outta town nd everythin
Schools out so im focused on my fam workin music period
Da label is flourishin so im feelin kinda good. Expect music 4rm us soon.
well not really much 2 blog about dis early but i got ya'll l8r ima do some brainstormin
O yea Lupe verse commin 2
U can expect it dis week keep ya eyes peeled
(dat pic old 2)
Cool?
Joe Cool

Monday, May 4, 2009

2day Was A Good Day

Wassup world
2day has been 1 of da weird's day Good shockin crazy fulfillin ahh
i met dis girl riva flowz she's a poet i hope she reads da blog
but anyways she's a poet
wow
den she's cool 2 talk 2
a +
but get dis
she's charles hamilton's bestfriend lol wow small world
or maybe God's talkin 2 me cause he's havin a baby 2 crazy
and den 2 go on
i've been so inspired 2day wit dese halo beats
i'm writin 2 new songs 'Tuxedo Man' and 'Lebron James (King Music)'
I got Ty's respect I'm in dere now
I did great on my final and i got my homework opened in math class
im startin 2 like college more (hope i spelled it rite)
and i made money and smoked tons of green
i feel like ice cube 2day was a good day
but im scared bad things might follow and happen 2 me....i dont kno
but anyways
Tarble lil bruh shoot me a kite
smittycoolmusic@gmail.com
i got a beat i want u 2 get on wit me
and i want u on my label
real shit
im finish writin and go 2 sleep

America thanks 4 da inspiration


Cool?
Joe Cool

Sunday, February 15, 2009

I'm not goin crazy....

My mind has neva worked dis much and dis fast before i dont kno wats wrong its like lim hyped up but im chilled im productive if everything works out i'll have The Birth of Cool my very first mixtape recorded 2nite and hopefully mixed by da weekend hopin. If its in God's will she will let it happen. All dese mishaps have been only makin me wanna work harder push more but i have 2 remember not 2 slack off in school in work....now i see y kayne west and charles hamilton droppeed outta school, but my man Frank gave me so good as advice. Ima drive myself fuck da people who wanna hold me back. man 4real i dont even shout Frank out alot but i respect dude alot i loved his mixtape 4real he had a nigga head nodin and he did justice 2 charlie hinton's beat 4 da song superman. also man thanks charlie 4 dis chance 2 make something great with Good Food. i really appreciate dis chance u giving me man.

and to my mother
well mamma i made u a song me and my friend made da beat and i recorded it but i slipped and erased it the song and the beat wont work or load at all so i had 2 deleate dat so now im back at da drawin board but im cool wit it cause dis time ima make da beat myself and rewrite da lyrics it'll be my version of hey mamma or dear mamma ya feel me i gotta think of a name my mamma
i dont kno so dats dat and please dont txt me tellin me 2 change anythin either mamma

cool?
aight
and i decided 2 put my official business wit da mixtape label under dis site name and my own personal blog on another name


but on another note everybody out dere if u dont not hear 4rm me in awhile dont think im neglecting u or dont like u or anythin im jus gettin wrapped up into achieving my goal

Cool?
Smitty

Guess Who's Back

Man i didnt really notice in my blogs i follow in my dashboard dat Dominique wrote something.....and she wrote about me.

Slick cheesin now

but its crazy doe im doin a lil over thinkin but look she didint have a song 2day and i jus so happy 2 make up one on da spot. Dat can be your new valentine song baby lol. Let me stop b4 a girl down here gets jealous cause i called her my baby.

I'ma give Dominique somethin special instead but first im still tryin 2 figure out y i'm so drawn 2 her (ayo excuse me while i black) aight so at first i was thinkin i tend 2 go 4 more weaker girls because my mom is so strong dat she emasculates me so i want my girl 2 b weaker den me but not 2 weak or i wont respect her right well i wouldnt say weak is da word i would jus rather my girl let me b da man right i love smart girls who write cause i have a thing 4 words and smart woman jus mesmerize me cause i slick love learnin (i'ma swagged up nerd) but wit her its wierd like she seems like a more laid back cool girl smarter den ya average chick deeper den whale pussy (not a good comparison) sexy and cute wit her own swag but even doe she has her own swag its not dat own swag dats like everybody elses unique own swag she took da nique outta unique and put it in her name Dominique so in return she shines it. i wanna pick her brain cause it seems like its so much i can learn 4rm her and teach her too or maybe im jus puttin her high on a silver platter and if i am jus doin dat den im truly disrespectin u i should puttin u on a platinum platter served wit kiwi and fruit a desert only meant 4 da gods and u yourself r Godly. In my eyes God has woman traits or could b a woman you were made in her eyes so u r a reflection of her therefor ( next 2 my mother) u r Godly a blessin in my eyes. even though i kno all dis i jus wanna kno where my feelings r comin 4rm like dis i've been feeling wierd alot latly 4 awhile now (make since) and i jus cant put my finger on things. I wanted u to b my valentine so dat'll b somethin we could always share 4 years 2 come. Didnt really have many grownin up my mamma was usually my valentine (is mother's day comin up cuase my momma been on my mind alot 2) so i would've remembered us lol man i jus let my mind wander and fingers loose and look wat happened lol i still do got something 4 u doe u might not understand it now but u will l8r

Cool?
Smitty

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Updates

Mamma don't b mad at me but i got deered i'ma try 2 get yo gift up 2marrow after work if everythin goes right
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Sorry

Mamma i might b a lil late on yo gift
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