High Random Thoughts

Wassup World as i sit here riddin high wit a quarter ounce of green in my big bruh/bestfriend's mamma car many thoughts run thru my head pardon if i sound as if im ramblin but sometimes i wonder how i will i leave dis earth by my "friends" enemies or my demons deep inside my insecurities does my gurl really love me will things start 2 look better in the future im only 19 but i got an old soul responsibilities pillin up dreams gettin outta focus future lookin gloomy i can sometimes picture myself sprillin down i sometimes feel as if i can work more grind harder do extra there's always room 4 improvement i really need 2 improve fine tune perfect learn nd get better on i gotta make some sacrifices 2 get it but hard work begits sucess right im high so i dont really kno ya feel me we windin goin down all dese roads suprised im not car sick right lol but anyways man i wonder bout wat i want my carrear (cant spell i kno) 2 b in da future i've come 2 realize i hate feelin as if i haveless power or feel as if my power or position (once i get a secure position) is bein threatened nd wit me bein high alot i have a higher since of paronoia u could say nd wit that bein added to it my thoughts get more fucked up ya feel me but then i also read the 48 laws of power nd i learned nd memorized things in dat book nd the art of seduction which thought me so much matured nd smartened me nd wit that being said i tend 2 study people 2 learn nd watch so im not losin my position or power the more i learned studying people i learned alot about us nd how we think dats a carrear choice i had in mind was 2 b a psychologist its fun learning about people how they think nd y they do this that nd the other nd i learned alot of things steam nd come 4rm childhood like me 4 example i grew up wit barley close to no friends so i used 2 write stories of a place i could escape wit friends nd all as i grew older i turned 2 writing poetry it was a better way 2 vent nd it was always a fun challenge 2 get it 2 rhyme dats da reason behind wanting my second carrer option 2 b a poet but 4rm poetry birthed my 4th carrer option 2 b a rapper my love of music is deep the stuff they spit is like poetry u can say nd wat they spit tells stories nd hits hard along wit da beat whichs builds the poets words nd compliments them along wit settin the mood, tellin a story in its self sometimes it takes poetry 2 another level i jus cant figure out which one im destine 2 b music seems 2 b it the way everythings been fallin into place but they say if u seek then u shall find nd dats wat i've been seekin but in my spare time i learn nd study power the mind nd other matters in psychology i always wonder nd visualize my future "could happen" mishaps which discourages me cause i wanna make things perfect fullthrough i guess nd i 4got 2 mention journalism is another thought but how will i afford school again get in school again especially wit a baby not helpin anythings is my mother's bitchin nd complainin nd she was on the phone nd heard me ventin 2 my babymamma nd told me she was done wit me i cant sweat everything so i gotta brush this off right now i have 2 get a better job nd stack money i'm recordin my first mixtapes right now nd plottin nd deciding wen 2 put them out im tryin 2 make my intro right i wrote this in every style i could feel comfortable writing in now the delivery is wats fuckin up ima perfectionist (wen it calls 4 me 2 b) so i've been finishin verses after 90 some odd takes nd now im tryin 2 figure should i double nd about my adlibs its a fustratin process but rewarding wen u get 2 hear the finished track how u wanted it 2 da T its like bustin a nut lol not quite but u get da picture then i gotta release them at da right time so i get full notice im nervous 2 hear da feed back doe feeling like Lupe Fiasco's first verse in Fighters off The Cool u kno itim gettin past it doe
Cool?
Joe Cool

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Wassup World
Ok i was jus txtin my bff
Cool? Hot! Tot
nd i was updatin her
on my Charles Hamilton news
nd my new future girlfriend

sometimes i swear my life is crazy
im like spirtually linked
2 some people
4 example i was havin strong feelings
dat jus made me sad nd all i could do
was worry bout Sean (Tarble)
after awhile i txted him
nd he was sayin yea he was goin thru shit
(i still havent checked da song out lil bruh my fault)
crazy

but wit my bff its different
its like we on da same page on damn near
everything
we was jus talkin bought my future
nd she said I Have More Future Wives
Den Anybody She Knows
nd She Has Eye Sex More Den Anybody
(tru she been takin off)

but our whole eye sex concept is so similar
wen u cry u nut
glasses nd contacts r condums
etc. etc.
its jus so funny cause i use 2 b on dat hard
nd she on it like me lol
we really connected
even if we seperated rite now
lol
aww man i miss my
Cool? Hot! Tot
ima b back dis weekend 4 a party

Cool?
Joe Cool