High Random Thoughts

Wassup World as i sit here riddin high wit a quarter ounce of green in my big bruh/bestfriend's mamma car many thoughts run thru my head pardon if i sound as if im ramblin but sometimes i wonder how i will i leave dis earth by my "friends" enemies or my demons deep inside my insecurities does my gurl really love me will things start 2 look better in the future im only 19 but i got an old soul responsibilities pillin up dreams gettin outta focus future lookin gloomy i can sometimes picture myself sprillin down i sometimes feel as if i can work more grind harder do extra there's always room 4 improvement i really need 2 improve fine tune perfect learn nd get better on i gotta make some sacrifices 2 get it but hard work begits sucess right im high so i dont really kno ya feel me we windin goin down all dese roads suprised im not car sick right lol but anyways man i wonder bout wat i want my carrear (cant spell i kno) 2 b in da future i've come 2 realize i hate feelin as if i haveless power or feel as if my power or position (once i get a secure position) is bein threatened nd wit me bein high alot i have a higher since of paronoia u could say nd wit that bein added to it my thoughts get more fucked up ya feel me but then i also read the 48 laws of power nd i learned nd memorized things in dat book nd the art of seduction which thought me so much matured nd smartened me nd wit that being said i tend 2 study people 2 learn nd watch so im not losin my position or power the more i learned studying people i learned alot about us nd how we think dats a carrear choice i had in mind was 2 b a psychologist its fun learning about people how they think nd y they do this that nd the other nd i learned alot of things steam nd come 4rm childhood like me 4 example i grew up wit barley close to no friends so i used 2 write stories of a place i could escape wit friends nd all as i grew older i turned 2 writing poetry it was a better way 2 vent nd it was always a fun challenge 2 get it 2 rhyme dats da reason behind wanting my second carrer option 2 b a poet but 4rm poetry birthed my 4th carrer option 2 b a rapper my love of music is deep the stuff they spit is like poetry u can say nd wat they spit tells stories nd hits hard along wit da beat whichs builds the poets words nd compliments them along wit settin the mood, tellin a story in its self sometimes it takes poetry 2 another level i jus cant figure out which one im destine 2 b music seems 2 b it the way everythings been fallin into place but they say if u seek then u shall find nd dats wat i've been seekin but in my spare time i learn nd study power the mind nd other matters in psychology i always wonder nd visualize my future "could happen" mishaps which discourages me cause i wanna make things perfect fullthrough i guess nd i 4got 2 mention journalism is another thought but how will i afford school again get in school again especially wit a baby not helpin anythings is my mother's bitchin nd complainin nd she was on the phone nd heard me ventin 2 my babymamma nd told me she was done wit me i cant sweat everything so i gotta brush this off right now i have 2 get a better job nd stack money i'm recordin my first mixtapes right now nd plottin nd deciding wen 2 put them out im tryin 2 make my intro right i wrote this in every style i could feel comfortable writing in now the delivery is wats fuckin up ima perfectionist (wen it calls 4 me 2 b) so i've been finishin verses after 90 some odd takes nd now im tryin 2 figure should i double nd about my adlibs its a fustratin process but rewarding wen u get 2 hear the finished track how u wanted it 2 da T its like bustin a nut lol not quite but u get da picture then i gotta release them at da right time so i get full notice im nervous 2 hear da feed back doe feeling like Lupe Fiasco's first verse in Fighters off The Cool u kno itim gettin past it doe
Cool?
Joe Cool

Growin Outta Things

Wassup World
Jus sitting here contemplating things rite now
i dont kno if jus dat i've grown up
or jus tired of things
but somethings dont intest me anymore
like goin 2 parties
or chillin wit a whole bunch of niggas
or some of da old niggas i used 2 fuck wit
if u my nigga i fucks wit u nd u kno it
i jus really wanna focus on myself my baby
my musik dats almost it
i fucks wit my gurl
i care 4 Shunda
i jus dont kno
Shunda=Toya (in CH life)

jus got side tracked really but
i might b growin up
or gettin more lame nd anti-social
either one does not make me mad
i dont really like talkin on da phone
i rather txt get str8 2 da point
ya feel me
things jus annoyin 2 me
i dont like chillin wit certain people nomore
certain things jus crazy now

i jus rather do music
dats all
or do poetry
i jus wanna write
let me voice b heard

but im chillin wit my big burh nd his fam
plus OG

Cool?
Joe Cool

Tip of Da Pain

Wassup World
Man dead ass sometimes or damn near all da time i cant stand my family. its like i try so hard 2 do dem rite b by dem if they need me or anythin ya understand, but they cant seem 2 do da same. They dog me out 2 each other nd other people. Talk crazy str8 2 my face nd my babymamma. they only ask me 2 do things dat benifit dem or if they do something 4 me they only do it if they benifitin. my mamma nd cousin dats damn near my sister stay fightin nd cursin each other out. i try nd bring dem close but it neva works. me nd my mamma dont get along. she told me i was a mistake at 13 or 14 she was barley around while i grew up. always workin or at school 2 impress da next person while i babysit my brothers. dats been goin on since 3rd or 4th grade. im not wanted i dont feel loved but they'll kno doe. i swallow my pride nd roll wit da punches no matter how bad they hurt internally. i dont like
complainin nd bitchin but its startin 2 hurt more nd more.
deres more...
UnCool?
Joe Cool

This Will Neva Happen 2 Me

Wassup World

lol jus watch

You gotta b tasteful wen spittin the real

or dont talk about da wrong girl

Cool?

Joe Cool

The Neverendin Zone Act 2

Wassup World
im slick hurt nd mad rite now
i jus wrote 1 of da most realest songs
about wat me nd my babymamma go thru
i feel so played i pause my plans 4 her not
da baby nd dis how she does me
am i a bad father 4 lovin my babymamma more den my son..
i kno we arent 2gether anymore
but she plays acts nd treats me like we r
maybe its betta we dnt b 2gether den
cause i wanna b wit her but i dont want 2 either
im not completly ready ima dog nigga
so im tryin 2 betta myself 4 Harlem her
nd myself
but nothin i does neva pleases her
I'm feelin like damn i aint shit
nd i dnt get dis 3 yrs damn near gone
Tons of women want me but im stressin ova her....
Y i mean damn i jus dnt kno wat 2 do anymore wit her us all of dis
love is so hard
i thought dis was somethin worth fightin workin nd puttin my efforts into
but damn where is da price 4 goin thru it??
dis y i dont have gurlfriends
its jus brings pain
confusing jus 2 many bad feelings
but y
love is supposed 2 b...
not dis
naw...

UnCool?
Joe Cool

Morning Talks

Man i think i've stumbled on a diamond in da rough
Dj H2 dis nigga a beast im finna find all dis nigga mixtapes and go ham.
i got his easter mixtape playin in my ear while i wait 4 dis shuttle 2 take me 2 campus
me king lathan and b easy finna do something 2 it lol
Ya'll dont understand how happy i am dat i have dese beats
no homo dis music slick my muse im gettin so inspired
and damn im late 2 take my final exam i was 2 gone last nite
high and drunk outta my mind i hate drinkin jus give me a blunt or 4 and im good lol

*Idea*

Me H2 nd Charles Hamilton doin a mixtape but Charles cant make a beat 4 it he jus has 2 rap.
cause fuck he talkin bought im da real Shadow da Headchog but u ca have it lol talkin like i kno him.
Damn i str8 4got 2 write my lupe verse
i kinda wanna see wat Ty finna pull out b4 i write
dis bus takin 2 long she might not let me take dis exam....Fuck!
well here's da bus wish me luck
walkin on campus wit basketball shorts and a baby white T lol

Cool?
Joe Cool

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I Hate College (work)

man im mad as hell rite now
i could really give a fuck bought college
its partly or mostly my fault
if i hadnt gotten sick my grades wouldve been str8
but i got sick so many times down here missed so much school its crazy
my teachers were gonna help me but they neva opened my online assignments so im fucked up
i passed 2 classes outta 5 damn dats some bullshit 2 da extreme
i hate school but i kno i gotta stay in dere
im movin 2 california 2 try livin out dere wit my Pops im slick nervous cause it might b hard 2 get a job
den im havin dreams and visions of something bad happening 2 me
so is my babymamma she jus had a dream last night i died
and she keeps havin feelings somethin bad is gonna happen 2 me dis is crazy
but 2 good news im finna do lupe fiasco 2
kinda nervous cause if i rip dis
....jus kno good shit will follow
nd dis cool nigga is followin me now
cant remeber yo name cause im bloggin 4rm da phone but yea next write off u in dere
i should do dis every month
Cool?
Joe Cool

So i smoked my last blunt 2nite i'm kinda nervous goin into dis but i'm goin into it wit good reasons i'm gonna stop smokin weed cause first i'm gettin broke second it makes me lazy and i'm gonna stop havin sex because its a big distraction and it takes up 2 much time i kno its not alot of reasons but we'll go along and talk about dem l8r as dis journey progress now i don't have 2 hear people's mouths about my old pastimes they called dem addictions lol i'll show dem wats real like i said school music and work really catch me in or between
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Smoked 2 start da day i'm feelin so drained and shit my mind is racin wit all type of shit man i'm really goin crazy i still feel somethin loomin ova me i've slick learned 2 accept it aye it is wat it is but look jus thought i.d feel da world in on me and wats goin on still sick but i'm finna get in da booth charlie made an offer i can't refuse so time 2 grind my focuses are as of now school music work beats and i'm gonna try and see how i can do wit no sex 4 awhile.....i'm really losin it
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See You In My Nightmares

The woman i always started 2 think was the girls of my dreams proved she was 2day but a bitter sweet dream not a nightmare doe its crazy doe jazy baby is wat i called lol but anyway yea she jus wowed me 2day we were talkin and i told her somethings i did in da past and she looked me dead str8 in my eyes and said i hate niggas like dat. Dat shit gonna come back 2 u and its gonna hit yo ass hard. And i'm like damn don't say dat knock on wood dont jynx me she said 2 me still starrin deep into my soul like nobody else has eva before i could i feel her breath 4rm across da room her eyes pierced me and i could feel her aura her feelings emotions were transfered in dis eye sex u can call it but she said naw nigga i hope it does i hate niggas like dat and i asked do u hate me and she said yea i said really she said yea dats fucked up i got quiet and asked str8 up and she said yea str8 up i was
hurt i was high and like i was hurtin bad slick wanted 2 cry damn bruh i guess i had 2 wake up dis way but u usually do eventually
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Bury Me Cool Wit A Letter 4rm My Bruhs Swishas a Gold Chain And Puddin Cups

Man i'm sittin here eatin a puddin cup and i licked da top u kno u used 2 lick da top 2 make sure u got it all anyway i'm thinkin like not on no suicide death cryptic like shit this jus my thoughts but if i die i wanna b remembered not in a vain way but a world changin way i want my words 2 touch people dats all i have dats really mine so i'm tryin 2 perfect it i don't kno i'm feelin dis way maybe death is lurkin on me i always feel like somethin is behind me or watchin me and my girl said she hated me and she's seein a monster in me my mom is gettin tired of me and da demons i need 2 shake off but she loves me da same my bad luck, my "bad" good luck i'm kinda emotionless at times i'm cold carefree 4 no reason i smoke and sometimes hear voices and shit be trippin but i'm smart as hell at da same time damn i don't kno maybe death is lurkin behind me so dis can b my last days diary or maybe
its a gigantic blessin comin and dis is my testimonial diary i don't kno but i'm cool
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