High Random Thoughts

Wassup World as i sit here riddin high wit a quarter ounce of green in my big bruh/bestfriend's mamma car many thoughts run thru my head pardon if i sound as if im ramblin but sometimes i wonder how i will i leave dis earth by my "friends" enemies or my demons deep inside my insecurities does my gurl really love me will things start 2 look better in the future im only 19 but i got an old soul responsibilities pillin up dreams gettin outta focus future lookin gloomy i can sometimes picture myself sprillin down i sometimes feel as if i can work more grind harder do extra there's always room 4 improvement i really need 2 improve fine tune perfect learn nd get better on i gotta make some sacrifices 2 get it but hard work begits sucess right im high so i dont really kno ya feel me we windin goin down all dese roads suprised im not car sick right lol but anyways man i wonder bout wat i want my carrear (cant spell i kno) 2 b in da future i've come 2 realize i hate feelin as if i haveless power or feel as if my power or position (once i get a secure position) is bein threatened nd wit me bein high alot i have a higher since of paronoia u could say nd wit that bein added to it my thoughts get more fucked up ya feel me but then i also read the 48 laws of power nd i learned nd memorized things in dat book nd the art of seduction which thought me so much matured nd smartened me nd wit that being said i tend 2 study people 2 learn nd watch so im not losin my position or power the more i learned studying people i learned alot about us nd how we think dats a carrear choice i had in mind was 2 b a psychologist its fun learning about people how they think nd y they do this that nd the other nd i learned alot of things steam nd come 4rm childhood like me 4 example i grew up wit barley close to no friends so i used 2 write stories of a place i could escape wit friends nd all as i grew older i turned 2 writing poetry it was a better way 2 vent nd it was always a fun challenge 2 get it 2 rhyme dats da reason behind wanting my second carrer option 2 b a poet but 4rm poetry birthed my 4th carrer option 2 b a rapper my love of music is deep the stuff they spit is like poetry u can say nd wat they spit tells stories nd hits hard along wit da beat whichs builds the poets words nd compliments them along wit settin the mood, tellin a story in its self sometimes it takes poetry 2 another level i jus cant figure out which one im destine 2 b music seems 2 b it the way everythings been fallin into place but they say if u seek then u shall find nd dats wat i've been seekin but in my spare time i learn nd study power the mind nd other matters in psychology i always wonder nd visualize my future "could happen" mishaps which discourages me cause i wanna make things perfect fullthrough i guess nd i 4got 2 mention journalism is another thought but how will i afford school again get in school again especially wit a baby not helpin anythings is my mother's bitchin nd complainin nd she was on the phone nd heard me ventin 2 my babymamma nd told me she was done wit me i cant sweat everything so i gotta brush this off right now i have 2 get a better job nd stack money i'm recordin my first mixtapes right now nd plottin nd deciding wen 2 put them out im tryin 2 make my intro right i wrote this in every style i could feel comfortable writing in now the delivery is wats fuckin up ima perfectionist (wen it calls 4 me 2 b) so i've been finishin verses after 90 some odd takes nd now im tryin 2 figure should i double nd about my adlibs its a fustratin process but rewarding wen u get 2 hear the finished track how u wanted it 2 da T its like bustin a nut lol not quite but u get da picture then i gotta release them at da right time so i get full notice im nervous 2 hear da feed back doe feeling like Lupe Fiasco's first verse in Fighters off The Cool u kno itim gettin past it doe
Cool?
Joe Cool

On Top Of Da World Pondering

im on top of da world
its rainin
i gotta stop lookin
nd worryin 4 people under me
dats y i look down
get it
love shouldnt hurt
wat if earth is hell
is death betta den dis
wats wrong wit people
i need some
good weed
good pussy
a good girl
n loyal good friends
is dat 2 much 2 ask
i got my son
nd music
they aint goin nowhere
Cool Musik fam damn
im sorry if i get a lil distracted wit dis

Cool?
Joe Cool

My Valentine

Im sittin here listening to Charles Hamilton dis mixtape is nice but i'm not feeling it like da other ones. i mean i always feel as if i kno charles on a personal level cause we relate so much 2gether. no homo or gay shit but i feel like im connected 2 dis nigga spirtually its crazy evey song dat has a message to me in or a song i really relate 2 i find myself feeling like its deja vu (did i speel dat right) crazy right, but im startin 2 feel im gettin crazier in peoples eyes as i start gainin more knowledge. like i cant really relate or b on other people's level. so dis is how it feels 2 b an alien or 2 feel as if u r not 4rm dis world its crazy sometimes i feel like im depressed but its cool bein depressed cause i think more



i've been thinkin i took alot of responsibility sayin i'll put a mixtape out every month cause i neva knew it was dis hard. its not da writing process dats hard but da recordin process cause niggas aint really serious like me. lately i've been sick doe cause of dis weather so my first mixtape keeps gettin pushed back it makes me mad feelin like i lied 2 u all dat read my blog.



now i bet u wonderin y i called dis my valentine

well 2 start my mom is my valentine sometimes i cant stand here and all dat etc. etc. shit but i love dat girl dead ass no matter wat happens my mom could kill Obama and i'm ridin wit her (i'ma talk more on her l8r)

but my blog friend De La Dom or Dominique hasnt been blogin lately so i've been readin her older entries. i swear if she had a widget 2 see da niggas visitin her site and how frequent i'd be dere everyday faithfully. i haven't read all her entries dont get me wrong she has so many videos dat my old computer freezes and i get mad and say fuck it but dead ass doe i asked her 2 b my (distant) valentine...i kno its short notice but lately i've been havin urges 2 do things dat i cant explain y or see da significance. is it God's hand? is she guidin me along like my mom used 2 and everythin will work out l8r??? i dont kno but its crazy after me and simone fall out and she stopped hittin me up (maybe my email aint workin) i get dis feeling 2 really reach out 2 Ms Dominique. I'm like wowin doe cause like she is slick my type i like but can neva have she's dat sexy nerdy girl in class engulfed in her music i want her i wanna kno how she ticks......im daydreamin bout u if u readin dis i wanna smoke some good weed wit ya (yea i started back) in a slightly dim room wit a mix of some old rnb and soul mostly 70s and 80s and charles hamilton slow shit lol im jus imagining maybe i am goin crazy fallin 4 an idea of somebody my fansies are runnin rampted

Cool?
Smitty

Bury Me Cool Wit A Letter 4rm My Bruhs Swishas a Gold Chain And Puddin Cups

Man i'm sittin here eatin a puddin cup and i licked da top u kno u used 2 lick da top 2 make sure u got it all anyway i'm thinkin like not on no suicide death cryptic like shit this jus my thoughts but if i die i wanna b remembered not in a vain way but a world changin way i want my words 2 touch people dats all i have dats really mine so i'm tryin 2 perfect it i don't kno i'm feelin dis way maybe death is lurkin on me i always feel like somethin is behind me or watchin me and my girl said she hated me and she's seein a monster in me my mom is gettin tired of me and da demons i need 2 shake off but she loves me da same my bad luck, my "bad" good luck i'm kinda emotionless at times i'm cold carefree 4 no reason i smoke and sometimes hear voices and shit be trippin but i'm smart as hell at da same time damn i don't kno maybe death is lurkin behind me so dis can b my last days diary or maybe
its a gigantic blessin comin and dis is my testimonial diary i don't kno but i'm cool
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